Muslim Woman

“Please Don’t Take my Photo, My Husband Might Kill Me”

A surprising tête-à-tête at Fête des Tuileries

tête-à-tête: A face-to-face meeting, or private conversation between two people; literally, a “head-to-head”

4 August 2014

There are lights and bells and squeals and cotton candy and sand in my sandals at La Fête des Tuileries 2014. I’ve found a bench at the Formule 1 ride. A little girl is ringing the bell on her truck and looking toward her Mom as she draws near. “Maman! Maman!” Mom at first doesn’t hear her, is too engrossed in her cell phone to notice, and the little girl tries again the next time around, again to no avail. This evokes in me a sinking heartbreak and desperation for that little girl. I want to start clapping for her myself. But she doesn’t want me to clap, she wants her Mom.

She’s the only one on the ride.

Ah! Good! Mom has put her phone away now, is following her daughter with her eyes, and is smiling and cheering occasionally. Good. Better.

When I first entered this Parisian Summer Fair near the Louvre, children were connected to bungee cords and jumping on low-to-the-ground trampolines. They were loving it. Two doggies scuffled nearby.

As I passed these children and the bungees, I noticed a woman dressed head-to-toe in black, her hijab (head covering) leaving only her face showing. She was seated on a bench looking at her cell phone while her child played with his Dad on the bungee/trampoline. My first impression was that – the strict, solid covering notwithstanding – she was beautiful. Her face was impeccably made-up. Her large, almond-shaped eyes and eyebrows were perfectly lined in black kohl. Her lips were full, beautifully-shaped and a deep, flawless red. As I passed her, I stopped in my tracks, turned around, went back, and asked her if I might take a photo of her. She looked at me apologetically and said, “No. I’m sorry. My husband is so jealous and if he saw you taking my picture, he might kill me. I’m very sorry, though.” I told her I completely understood (which was a complete lie), thanked her anyway, and said good-bye.

“He might kill me…”

There was fear as she considered I might take her picture. It was real fear…of her husband. But, there was peace and grace, too. It seemed to me that she understood that this was her life and that this was one of the rules of her life, a guiding principal to cover her hair and head and body. She obviously, though, took great care to lovingly and beautifully prepare that part of her she was allowed to show the world. Although no photos will capture that beauty, that diminishes the beauty not at all. I have deep respect for this woman who consciously creates as much self-expression for herself as possible. Because of this conversation, I no longer view these women as merely oppressed and dark and hidden and shapeless. My eye now sees their intricate and conscious and subtle individualism. And, yes, beauty. And my heart cheers.

It was a life-altering conversation.

18 thoughts on ““Please Don’t Take my Photo, My Husband Might Kill Me”

    • Pola, thank you so much for these comments. I try very hard to see travel as a way to learn and wonder about and understand others. I wanted to portray my conversation with the woman not as a judgements by a “Westerner” but more as a photographer and story-teller, viewing and observing and connecting with another woman.
      My very best to you.

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  1. We too often take for granted the freedoms that most of us reading this have. To think that this woman fears that her husband may kill her, and means it, if her photo is taken, is sad. I know there are women in the free world that may, unfortunately, fear their spouses, but that’s the exception, not the rule.

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    • Hi, Connie, thank you so much for reading and commenting. Yes, she obviously feared him but also seemed quite content and at peace. And, I loved her shade of lipstick and the way she did her eyes! (Oh, I wish I could have taken her photo!)

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    • I was so humbled by the conversation and wanted to be an observer rather than a judge. Thank you for understanding that I did try for a different perspective.
      May you day be filled with life-changing observances, too!

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    • Arnie, I must say I was shocked when she said those words. But she carried herself with such grace and her words were so matter-of-fact that all I could do was admire her beauty and try to understand that this is the life she accepts and lives. I was so honored to have that short conversation with her.
      Take care and I look forward to following your travels!
      Renate

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  2. so beautiful as we witness america in conversation about race, our differences, our own racial ambiguities, fears and your glimpse of the little girl, her pain (all of our pain) go be recognized, seen,
    and the beautiful woman hidden inside her hijab that in taking the time to see her how your own consciousness changes. you recognize the differences and also the similarities of humanity. thank you renata. i love you, n

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    • Thank you, Nancy, for this beautifully thoughtful reply. Your comment has helped me to realize the connection between the little girl and the woman in the hijab. Both, in their own way, requesting, “Please see me! Please see me.” And, you’re right, we all want this, don’t we?
      Much love to you, too.

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